Monday is over, and I am shattered already. And I have four more days of this. Today consisted of three meetings, two offers of representation, an impromptu drive down Sunset Boulevard courtesy of my very confused GPS, and a screening of Inception at SAG in Beverly Hills. Yeah OK, so I've had a pretty good day.
But something's missing. And that is home. I have an amazingly productive day, I get back to my flat and there's no one there, and everyone I care about is 8 hours ahead of me. This shit really makes you realise what is important. And more so than ever am I now appreciating all those special people in my life. I know that sentence may be really badly constructed, but I am so tired it makes sense to me.
I didn't want a relationship for a good few years after the train wreck of a man-related year I had last year, and I also wanted to focus on work and be selfish if I had to, which included upping and leaving whenever I felt like it. But then this thing that looks like he should be in a D&G advert man walks past the window of the coffee shop I'm in, asks for my number in broad daylight. Not wishing to show up this poor man in public, I gave him my number, forgetting to make up a fake one on the spot, and he has been stalking me and pretending to be my boyfriend ever since. I'm only kidding, I don't really know where I'm going with this, he's the sweetest and most amazing person ever and I couldn't wish to be with a better person. And I'm grateful to be in a stable and secure relationship with someone who is so supportive of what I am doing, I know it can't be easy that I may be moving away.
In an industry where you could be a global phenomenon overnight, or fly out to a location the next day, nothing is certain. And nothing is believable. People can be disingenuous and bullshit because they're cunts, but it is important to understand that the industry is a giant wheel with so many particles, components and factors that make a project work, that even those with the best will and greatest intentions are unable to provide you with certainty, because they can't control the other cogs.
The most important thing is to be happy in your own life first. And that means having the right people in your life.
But something's missing. And that is home. I have an amazingly productive day, I get back to my flat and there's no one there, and everyone I care about is 8 hours ahead of me. This shit really makes you realise what is important. And more so than ever am I now appreciating all those special people in my life. I know that sentence may be really badly constructed, but I am so tired it makes sense to me.
I didn't want a relationship for a good few years after the train wreck of a man-related year I had last year, and I also wanted to focus on work and be selfish if I had to, which included upping and leaving whenever I felt like it. But then this thing that looks like he should be in a D&G advert man walks past the window of the coffee shop I'm in, asks for my number in broad daylight. Not wishing to show up this poor man in public, I gave him my number, forgetting to make up a fake one on the spot, and he has been stalking me and pretending to be my boyfriend ever since. I'm only kidding, I don't really know where I'm going with this, he's the sweetest and most amazing person ever and I couldn't wish to be with a better person. And I'm grateful to be in a stable and secure relationship with someone who is so supportive of what I am doing, I know it can't be easy that I may be moving away.
In an industry where you could be a global phenomenon overnight, or fly out to a location the next day, nothing is certain. And nothing is believable. People can be disingenuous and bullshit because they're cunts, but it is important to understand that the industry is a giant wheel with so many particles, components and factors that make a project work, that even those with the best will and greatest intentions are unable to provide you with certainty, because they can't control the other cogs.
The most important thing is to be happy in your own life first. And that means having the right people in your life.